Evil vs. Mental illness

Although the priest Sunday morning was about 100 years old, he was talking about how all of the negatives in this world are in relation to the devil. The main topic was of the Colorado shooting just a few weeks ago and how the killer was a form of the devil... If I had a few minutes to spare after I would have told him that I completely disagree. The shooter of the Colorado disaster was mentally ill, not taken over or in a form of the devil. Statements like this make me question my already fragile faith. How could he drain the hundreds of minds sitting before me, under the "voice of God" suggesting that this man was the devil? To me, there needs to be some sort of line between religion and science/evil and mental illness. Please don't get me wrong... what happened in Colorado was tragic and appalling but has nothing, if anything to do with religion. I will remember this as a horrific event that cross country has touched the lives of many, but the people involved will be for the rest of their lives.

The General

No, not that "Maine" commercial. I've generally been thinking about life today. I want to hear people's stories, experience new sensations, and clean my slate. TODAY, I'm going to consider it clean. I want to start actually living and not watching life go by. I want to experience what I never thought was possible and start listening more than hearing my own thoughts and opinions. Inspiration comes from within but is better influenced by our surroundings and misfortunes then anything. I say this in a good way though... you can only go up from the bottom and theres a lot of hidden secrets we don't know down there.

Let the man lead...

To be edited later but I can't help but compare me always wanting to lead my dance parter instead of follow them. It's even a challenge for me to let the man lead because I lose my rhythm and step. Is that not the same in real life?

Expectations

It's been a while since I last posted and am going to start blogging a LOT more this summer (maybe even tack on some faithful followers!). Consistency is key in this situation because although I’ve posted a little over 80 times… the spontaneous needs to stop at least for a bit. I’ve had time to catch my breath and start focusing on new future goals instead of just talking about them!

 I’m gonna go ahead and pour myself a glass of wine now!

 

Lately I’ve been thinking of different situations and expectations verses reality. If we expect something to happen and it doesn't, as people we get upset or discouraged when reality does not match up. I need to change my mindset to be open to let anything happen and be satisfied with the results!

Yosemite

Yosemite HD from Project Yosemite on Vimeo.

Irresistible Impulse

There is a phrase I’ve forgotten… something along the lines of “go with your gut feeling” but the impulsiveness of a ‘gut feeling’ may not always be the best bet. I can’t exactly preach to the choir, but the unhealthy reactions that I’ve given out lately seem to come at the wrong time… or wrong moment, where if I would let time play its course than I would have nothing to worry about.

(ARRR) wrong.

Where is my safety net? I envy those who can fall into a net of controlled thought. My mind seems to work so impulsively with no control like air pockets in bubble wrap that seem to keep popping making the problem worse than supporting what the comfortable plastic is actually there for (realization and control).

Ah, I agree, the mind is a terrible thing to waste, but how exactly to control the minds impulses is one technique that may benefit and allow me to take advantage of not giving a shit about things that don’t matter.