Irresistible Impulse

There is a phrase I’ve forgotten… something along the lines of “go with your gut feeling” but the impulsiveness of a ‘gut feeling’ may not always be the best bet. I can’t exactly preach to the choir, but the unhealthy reactions that I’ve given out lately seem to come at the wrong time… or wrong moment, where if I would let time play its course than I would have nothing to worry about.

(ARRR) wrong.

Where is my safety net? I envy those who can fall into a net of controlled thought. My mind seems to work so impulsively with no control like air pockets in bubble wrap that seem to keep popping making the problem worse than supporting what the comfortable plastic is actually there for (realization and control).

Ah, I agree, the mind is a terrible thing to waste, but how exactly to control the minds impulses is one technique that may benefit and allow me to take advantage of not giving a shit about things that don’t matter.

Jean-Luc - Trust

Here are three things I know to be true:

1. I know that Jean-Luc was right when he said a "a good story has a beginning middle and end" although not necessarily in that order
2. Not all that glitters is gold - but it might in your eyes under a certain light
3. I'm still young, and gathering all my past/present knowledge and experiences to learn what I do not know of the future

Dan Brown suggested that the key to the future is hidden in our past and also that trust (powerful truth) has its own gravity and eventually pulls people back to it. (i'm not going to lie- hah) but trust is a huge issue for me and I can't help but keep past events on my personal back burner. It's easy to pull back a page and rip it out of a book, but it's unrealistic to pull a page from my past in fear that it may be the key to my future. I do believe that people come in and out of our lives for reasons whether it is to teach us lessons or change our attitudes but how can I shake this horrible quality that has been embedded in me for almost four years?

Let the pages keep turning in hopes that my experiences and growth will help me take control of my future to be the best person I can possibly be.